by cubanchick~ i will start off by saying that if you don't like to hear someone who is not overweight to talk about their weight....please stop reading here.
i know that i have lost, and thankfully maintained, about ten to fifteen pounds. however, thanks to my boyfriend and terrible eating habits, i have found myself gaining inches and pounds. well, first came the two or three pounds. make your ugh sounds! i don't care! to my five foot four inch cuban curvy body that is a difference in my shorts.
anyway, so when i noticed those few pounds i began cutting out ice cream and jogging every single day and doing crunches in the morning and at night. well, a week later-- i went to the scale. i felt good. right until i saw that stupid number.....i gained weight!!!!! ahhhhhh. stubborn and tired of obsessing about my weight (i have been obsessing majorly for the past month), i told myself it was muscle.
i went to the beach for the weekend and tried to eat healthy but that did not workout at all. now i am back to reality and i have jogged ever since i got back. my point right now is, even though i am smaller than i used to be, i don't ever want to be there again. looking at my pictures i looked o.k., but my cheeks were definitely bigger.
i have felt pretty good about my appearance for the past year. that is the first time ever. and now i don't feel very thin. i know it is perspective, but it is my perspective and i want it gone. i really don't know my weight. am i gaining muscle with the exercise and thus the number is rising, or am i reeping the horrible effects of the ice cream i ate in june? this is my question that i am throwing out into the universe because i am tired of thinking of my "number weight". i am truly a girl at heart.
i will end on a positive note...the one good thing about my work clothes is that dress pants and heels not only add to my height but make me feel much thinner verses the summer flip flops and shorts that give me the stumpier look. so, i am in a very minute way looking forward to returning to my work clothes.
so i totally feel your pain. i went through the same thing and when you gain those extra 5 pounds after a year of staying the same skinny size it doesn't feel good at all.
Posted by: babychick | July 31, 2007 at 02:05 PM
Since you threw the question out to the universe, just a thought - stay off the scales. Watch how your clothes fit. If you look "good" you are where you need to be.
Posted by: Lisa Nall | July 31, 2007 at 02:23 PM
I try not to think about it, but it does creep back up on me, and those few extra pounds have come back. I'm right there with you girl, jogging, blech! but it's gets the job done. I think I like to eat to darn much!
Posted by: plannerchick | July 31, 2007 at 02:30 PM
well, i'm all for you staying healthy and in shape now. no need to wait until you gain 15 pounds and then have to loose that much instead of taking care or 2 or 3 now.
however, it is very sad to me that 2 or 3 pounds alters how you feel about yourself. i don't know why intelligent women let such minor things bother us, but it seems we do. someone told me to try to stay conscious, but not obsessed. i think that's a good balance. not that i've found it yet . . . on either side. :-P
Posted by: photochick | July 31, 2007 at 03:15 PM